What’s a secret skill or ability you have or wish you had?

What’s a secret skill I wish I had?

I used to think about this a lot during childhood…

I wished I could become invisible whenever I wanted.

Not to see others…
Not to follow anyone…
Not out of curiosity.

But just to quietly disappear.

Back then, I didn’t understand why I wanted that so much…

But now, I do.

It wasn’t about disappearing from the world.

It was about feeling safe.

Safe from unwanted situations,
unnecessary conversations,
unexpected meetups,
and those uncomfortable eye contacts.

I thought invisibility would protect me.

Because there was a time…
when I used to isolate myself
whenever things felt too heavy.

Back then, it felt like I was escaping.
Running away… from everything.
Sometimes even from myself.

But now, something has changed.

I don’t isolate anymore.

Isolation is not the word.

Now… I stay with me.

“I don’t isolate… I stay with me” 

And that is a huge difference.

I don’t run from others.
I don’t run from myself either.

I just choose to stay…
silently… gently… within my own space.

So maybe… I don’t really need invisibility anymore.

Because I’ve learned something deeper.

I can be visible…
and still protect my peace.

I can be present…
and still remain untouched.

At the end of the day,
I have me.

And that…
is my safest place 🤍